Brooke in Wonderland

NEW BLOG

2011-01-03T23:56:00.000-08:00

I have a new blog. I will no longer be using this one.

So hop on over to :

http://www.weveallgonemad.blogspot.com/

:)))

HELP!!!

2010-12-20T08:56:00.000-08:00

My enthusiasm in starting my blog back up again went wrong somewhere because as you can see.... I deleted my template!! Blahhhhh! Leave it to me to ruin something. It doesnt help that I'm computer retarded. No really. Blahhhhh! So if any of you can help that would be incredibly amazing because... I'm Lost.

2010-12-19T08:34:00.001-08:00

O Holy Christmas elf it has been a minute.

Blahhhhh the Blahhhh chaos of my Blahhhh life is finally starting to become less Blahhhh chaosy. Finally. Blahhhh. Did I mention Blahhhh?

Well first off, Merry Christmas! Isn't the holiday season so magical? I love the lights, smells (I swear everyday smells like Disneyland), music and FOOD FOOD FOOD! Tis the season to get plump. Its inevitable, thats why the stretchy pregnancy pants are out of storage. Bring on the double fudge peppermint brownies and some fatty fatty eggnog to wash it down.... for breakfast. :)

So lets catch up. You may be asking yourself "Where the Hell has this girl been?" "Is she even alive?" "Did her madness finally catch up which sent her away to an insane asylum?" Well that last part could be true...you'll just never know. ;) Where have I been hiding??? Maybe in a warehouse covered in dust and paint? Yep. I have the hobo-esque look down to a science. I am drowning in paint and creative psycho-chaos all because I am now working for a children's theater company. Mmmm... you know when the curtains open and you see that amazing eye candy and because of its beauty you cant help but tear up? .....Yeah I'm the one that made that happen. Maybeeeee in the making of that glorious set I've lost some fingers...maybe I have permanent bags under my eyes, maybe Parkers diet had consisted of fruit loops and fruit by the foot. (it says fruit which makes me feel lest guilty...) maybe I showered every 4-5 days, maybe I bitched and complained every sec of the way BUT maybe just maybe it was all worth it when the crowd gasps at my amazingness. Maybeeee I dreamt that part up but I love what I do even when I hate doing it. All because I am consumed with magical inspiration everyday. Anddddmaybe because Parker brags about having a cool mom with a tool belt to his friends at school. I've heard around that I've been compared to Handy Manny and Bob the Builder. It is most wonderfully, fantastic in a "mad" sorta way.

On to Mr. Parker. My robot, my little Wall-e. Real talk, if you want to get to know Parker watch Wall-e. Parker is Wall-e, Wall-e is Parker. He is basically a non verbal robot that has so much personality and is constantly pulling your heart strings. My Parker isn't so verbal due to his hearing loss but we work everyday. Try hearing yourself repeat things 1000000 times in one day. Listening to my own voice exhausts me so I can only imagine how he feels. A whole lot of Blahhhs come to mind.

"Parker can you please go get your shoes?"

First attempt... calm, quiet, serene. Like how the "good" moms talk to their kids.

"Parker go get your shoes puhhleasee?"

Second attempt... Still calm with a hint of attitude.

Repeat

"P. a. r. k. e. r. shoes. now."

Sixth attempt... its not a question anymore. Now its pure business. I'm boss kid.

Repeat

"Shoessssss (while signing it)"

Ninth attempt... I'm now numb with frustration as he turns and looks at me and says (and signs) No.

Sigh.

Its a miracle he has the opportunity to hear our world now. He is trying so hard and learning everyday. But the attitude has to go. Good lord I was the good child, I did what I was told and god punished me by sending me my sister. Atleast her attitude. What did I do in a past life to deserve the cold looks and violent screams? Maybe because I can be just as stubborn as he can?Maybe because I learned to deal with my sister therefore I know all the tricks. Remember kid, I'm the cool mom with the tool belt you brag about. I'm also the mom that lets you throw world war III tantrums in Target without turning red or embarrassed. Bring on the Oscar because my acting skills in public are flawlesssss. Although he deserves a medal of honor for having to deal with my mad cuckoo arse everyday. I am sure I drive him crazier than he could ever drive me. This kid is a hoot. Really. Investing in a deaf child was the best thing that has ever happened to me, I suggest one to everyone I meet. Deafy for life. :)

All in all we're insane and I wouldn't have it any other way.

My brother Kenny and I showing our overwhelming Christmas spirit.

"Here Comes the Dark before the Dawn"....

2010-08-03T16:48:00.000-07:00

As I sit here typing this my hands are still covered in paint

and the house has a distinct aroma of spray paint,

I have a bowl of homemade butter cream icing in my lap

and a box of graham crackers to my right.

Whelppp...thats as good as its gunna get today.

Meet my newest creation...

2010-07-28T02:24:00.000-07:00

Fresh start

starting.....

NOW!!!!!!!!!

Three Candles.

2010-06-12T09:54:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhh!!!

My little man is not so little anymore!

Today is a bitter sweet day for this Mama.

Parkie is THREE!!

Time has flownnnn by!

This time last year he couldnt even hear me say Happy Birthday.

I can only imagine what this year is going to bring.

:)))

2010-05-05T09:46:00.000-07:00

Painting...

There is no sense of gravity when

I am holding a brush smothered in paint.

In that moment, I am me. Brooke.

Chaos and contention can't

penetrate my walls.

I feel... Peace.

Painting has helped me better understand life,

because really... life is alot like painting.

You start out with a blank canvas.

So Boring, so dull.

Each of us see its potential.

Maybe not at once but each stroke

brings us closer to our completed masterpiece.

When the brush is in my hand I have

a choice where to place it.

I am the creator.

I am Brooke.

I am me.

The randomness of random randoms.

2010-02-25T08:16:00.000-08:00

So lately life has been a little random.

Daily activities bring never ending surprises.

Lots of giggles and excitement.

Pretty amazing if you ask me.

Heres how our days have been going...

So maybe the day starts out with some casual drawing in the Buzz Lightyear Pj's.

Followed by some light cartoon watching.

Then we mayyybee move onto building some block cities.

After lunch, lately its been park time. Rain or Shine. :)

I'm the cool mom that lets him get dirty.

Of course we have to bring along the "cool" little bro.

And with that bro comes the sister who eats oranges in the bath.

True Story.

Then maybe we lock Parker in the car...

also true story.

Mother of the year right here people!

Bathroom pics with the sis are a nightly must!

We multi task by giving Mr. Park a bath...

My mom then tends to come out of her craft "cave"

and presents me with pretties.

She made me that headband.

Then I'm usually off to paint or create some type

of masterpiece...

or maybe I just sit and talk on the phone for hours...

But whatever does happen next...

(in the words of Martha Stewart)

"It's a good thing."

2010-02-19T12:34:00.000-08:00

A world full of lost, confused, conflicted, and fearful thoughts. These thoughts helped create a mess of a life for her. Everyday was a struggle, a struggle just to “be”. The constant entrapment of her rehearsed ways constructed relentless secrecy. Hiding the demons that lurked among the mind of this trouble being, was always a fight. A fight against herself.

The delusional world she created around her, the façade became easy to become apart of. What a sham of a smile she gave to passing strangers. That mask that hid all of her insecurities was as thick as granite. She couldn’t be broken for she already chipped her emotions away. The numbness that engulfed her shell of a body raised the awareness that she was merely just there. At times she thought she felt joy. Never could really tell if the feeling was apart of her daily performance. Act 7 Scene 3? Maybe, or maybe she did "feel" at times.

There were many people around her. Some she depended on to keep her ground stable. Like a scale, if one left her side the existence she had worked so hard to keep manageable became unsteady, unknowing. Although she had many who unconditionally cared for her, she had become so callused; I don’t think their love ever reached her. To her, she was the only broken one. To her everyone had it so easy. There were no demons taking over her “beauty pageant queen” of a sister’s mind. Not wanting to take that form, that cookie cutter mold of a being. It wasn’t her. So I guess she was taking a risk, to conform and feel safe or be, her.

Few were able to bring her walls down; few were able to make her feel secure enough to put that mask away. However, when she was comfortable enough to show her true self, it was a beauty.

To be cont....

Oh. Parkie.

2010-02-04T11:19:00.000-08:00

Losing yourself.

2010-02-03T20:36:00.000-08:00

If you've seen the movie Runaway Bride, you are familiar with "The egg test".

How do you like your eggs?

Scrambled?

Over easy?

Eggs Benedict?

Poached?

Fried?

My whole life I thought I liked my eggs scrambled...

because everyone I know eats them that way. So...

I sat down and realllyyyyy thought about it.

Ive come to an eye opening conclusion...

I hate eggs!

That got me thinking. What do "I" like?

Me. Myself. and Only I.

Do I let people influence my decision making?!

Oh.My. I DO!

How disappointing.

I want to be authentic. So that's it.

I am going on my own adventure.

It's time about time I break out of the mold people create for me. It's time I find Brooke.

So many new things are blossoming in my life. I want to leave my old dried out petals behind.

Far behind. Each new petal that replaces an old one will be so much stronger and brighter.

No more losing myself in others.

I am me. Myself. and Only I.

I want to give myself new challenges...

Help me! Challenge me!

Why Hellloooo...

2010-01-28T13:23:00.000-08:00

I'd like to introduce my new pieces.

All were created after the "Big" transition.

This has where my mind has been.

This is where I've left my heart.

This is where I began healing.

In each painting.

Each piece is so different and has a unique meaning.

Some full of pain, some grief,

some hope, some love.

I have become completely vulnerable with my art.

I don't plan or think.

I paint exactly what I feel in the moment.

I have some great opportunities coming soon.

I am so stoked and will fill all of you in

when I get more info.

Enjoy my Loves!

*If anyone is interested in purchasing a painting please contact me

Via Email:

Brookebtty@gmail.com

little brothers make me smile.

2010-01-20T09:21:00.000-08:00

Meet Ryan.

My little brother.

Parker is a big fan of Ryan.

He said his name for the first time on Sunday.

It was adorable.

Ryan is an awesome uncle to Parkie.

They have a very strong bond.

I have a feeling they always will.

I've uploaded a few videos of

him before but I never get sick

of hearing him sing.

Neither does Parkie.

Sooo.... enjoy the sounds of a 14 year old uncle.

lol

;)

back to simple.

2010-01-19T12:38:00.000-08:00

Oh.

My.

How I've missed all of you so much.

I wish I had the strength to explain things earlier.

It took me awhile.

Where have I been?! Really?!

................................

Six months ago I moved in with my parents.

Just Parker and I.

The word I never thought Id live through...

d.i.v.o.r.c.e

So complicated.

I don't know why things happen...

I now understand sometimes

there is no explanation.

I am growing.

I am learning.

I am becoming stronger.

Changes are beginning.

New adventures are blossoming.

I am happy.

Genuinely happy.

Parker is doing fabulous!!!!!

He is learning everyday.

He knows how to...

locate sound.

mimic noises.

He says...

Mama.

Bug.

Bye Bye.

Hello.

Ryan. (my brother)

More.

Up.

Open.

He is so incredibly smart. I will update on him more soon.

Maybe even a video.

Well my friends.

I am so sorry I deserted you.

Truly. I am.

Its all about simple now.

Simple thoughts.

Simple feelings.

Simple actions.

Simple.

Well, an Alice of course. ;)

A few pics from our trip to Disneyland in Dec.

The Siblings and Mr. Parkie. He was in heaven.

Signing Train.

So excited to be in our little heaven we call Disney.

I don't think words can really explain

the excitement in this picture.

I was tweeking.

lol.

artartartart.

2009-10-18T20:22:00.000-07:00

Meet my latest creations...

They've made me very happy.

( Note: These pictures do not do them any justice....really)

"Beautiful Chaos"

20 x 16 Canvas

"bird"

9 x 12 Hard Canvas

"Timeless"
11 x 14 Hard Canvas

" Over Growth"

9 x 12 Hard Canvas

Chopped.

2009-10-15T15:34:00.000-07:00

So.

I can't upload the other Utah pictures.

Technical difficulties.

Suck. :(

Anywho...

So. I cut my hair

After getting out of the shower one day,

I was admiring my beautiful spilt ends...

had a manic moment...

grabbed scissors...

CHOPPED THOSE SUCKERS OFF!

It was glorious.

I now have split end free hair.

Its shorter, yes...short hair isn't sexy...

but I will take "cute" for now.

Ps. Parkie and I went on an "Adventure"....

Oh. Happy. Day.

Sisters.

2009-10-10T17:40:00.000-07:00

So I have three sisters.

Lauren(20) Stacey(19) Jenni(17)

We are very close.

We decided to take a road trip.

A 13 hour road trip!

Utah or bust!

Our Adventure began...at 4am.

I was the first to drive. Woo!

Oh Caffeine, how I love thee!

Luckily Stacey stayed up with me

We danced from Fresno to Barstow.

;)

I think this was an inspired trip.

I never thought we could possibly become closer.

We bonded. Alot. We fought. Often.

But, each fight ended in tears and sorry's.

It was kinda beautiful.

I love my sisters to my core.

They make me, Me.

My sisters aren't afraid to tell me how it is,

They aren't afraid to cuddle me when I'm down,

I am their biggest fan.

I need them.

I feel rejuvenated.

More about "The trip" tomorrow.

:)))

2009-09-29T17:53:00.000-07:00

Oh Brooke,

It's ok to come out of hiding.

Push your way through those dark stormy clouds,

things are getting better.

Soon your days will be full of happiness and hope.

Lets not be afraid.

Don't run.

Don't run from our past.

Don't run from fear.

Please, don't run from love.

Brooke, I know things get tough.

You're strong, so be strong.

Ask for help.

You are NEVER alone.

Embrace these choices you've made.

Step it up.

If not for you, for Parkie.

He needs us.

Now not later.

Lets remember why you are here.

Never forget it.

People need you.

You need yourself.

Oh. Brooke.

Learn to love yourself.

Again, do it for Parkie.

It's ok to take off the mask.

We love you...for you.

Surrender.

Where's a white rabbit when you need one?

2009-08-31T10:16:00.000-07:00

Oh life.

I'm exhausted.

How bout some help?

Life, remind me why I am here.

Please.

Change is good. I think? It will be. I hope.

Oh where has my smile gone?

Laugh please come back.

Can someone please point me to

the nearest rabbit hole

so I can get the hell out of here.

Take me to my safe place.

Away.

In my mind.

Confused?

I bet you all are.

I'm sorry.

In time I will explain.

I am getting out of this rut.

Right now.

Parkie needs me.

I need our adventures.

I'm back.

mad.sister.indeed.

2009-08-20T15:06:00.000-07:00

I really needed a good laugh today.
Then I came across this picture of my sister.

Baahaha!

I nearly fell out of my chair and piddled in my pants.
This picture was for a school project.
"Jenni the Science Lady" to be exact.

Hilarious.

My family is most def. MAD.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.

;)

changes.

2009-08-17T22:03:00.000-07:00

A lot has been going on lately and I'm not quite ready to blog about these "adventures"
I wanted to let all of you know that I am still alive.
Barely.
Life is becoming increasingly rough and I wouldn't want
to rub my negativity off on you lovelies.

So until then, you will all be missed. :(

peanuts & cracker jacks.

2009-07-30T10:36:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh.
Summer to me equals three things...
pools.
watermelon.
baseball games.

My brother Ryan was lucky enough to sing
the National Anthem at a AAA baseball game.

The hubs and I brought Parkie along because Ryan
just happens to be his favorite person in the world!

Their connection is UNBELIEVABLY, INDESCRIBABLE.
Before Parkie could "hear" he would sit and watch
Ryan sing to him, in awe.
And of course at home he demands to
watch his YouTube videos.

HaHa! Fourteen year olds think its amusing you can spell poop with your hands.
ok. sodoi. :)

forever.

2009-07-27T22:26:00.000-07:00

One reason we came to visit family

was because we had a wedding...

The Hubs sisters wedding.

Megan and Andrew

were married

July 26th 2009.

They have two beautiful children together

Kayden (2 1/2) and Keira (9 mos)

We are so very excited for them and hope they will always feel like "newly weds".

While I was watching the ceremony it reminded me

of the vows we each make to ALL of our loved ones.

We promise to honor and commit.

We promise to show unconditional love.

We promise to respect and take leaps of faith.

Mmmm.

O. to. be. in. love. foreverrr.

Makes me feel all googley inside....

white rabbit.

2009-07-26T20:03:00.000-07:00

I had the pleasure of attending

my youngest brothers play....

Alice in Wonderland

What?!?

I think they knew I was in town!

Can I just say it was

AUUHMAAAZING!

The set was fantabulous.

It looked like it was plucked from Disneyland.

My brother played no other than...

The White Rabbit.

He was too cute.

After the play I requested to take pictures with every character...

& you bet I did.

I was in awe...

even blushed a little.

;)

Alice

White Rabbit

The Queen of Hearts

Tweedle Dee

Tweedle Dum

The Mad Hatter.

What a night!!!!

my precious.

2009-07-24T20:41:00.000-07:00

Ahem.

Hear Ye! Hear Ye!

I have a most extremely important fantabulous

announcement to make...

The trailer for the NEW

Alice in Wonderland has come in.

My. Oh. My.

Can I even begin to explain my excitement.

The truth?

I cried...a little.

March 5th 2010 is going to

be a Glorious day!

Oh how I adore my beloved Mad Hatter

I am officially weak in the knees.

Sigh.

Now my friends,

sit back.

relax.

and

watch

precious.

http://www.hulu.com/watch/85149/movie-trailers-alice-in-wonderland

2009-07-23T10:39:00.000-07:00

Doesn't my new layout look auhhmuhhzing??
Mad props to Jessica from This, That and your Blog.

So today is Thursday....
What am I doing you ask?
Oh. I'm in my home town...
Whoop Whoop.

Visiting family is always...entertaining?

Over the next few days expect...
mad music videos.
hilarious webcam photos.
Adventures GALORE.

bike-a-thon.

2009-07-21T22:23:00.000-07:00

First and foremost....

Thank You

everyone who donated

to Parkie's School.

CCHAT managed to raise over...

10,000.00

and the money is still coming in!

So auuhmazing.

So Thank you again!

Ok so the bike-a-thon started at 9am

and it was already 98 degrees outside.

When it was Parkies turn to ride it was 106 degrees.

Ahhhhhhhhh!

Mind you.

I was wearing pants

hair was down

camera in hand

while pushing my 2 year old

around a track on blacktop.

Ahhhhhhhhh!

Parkie managed to finish 7 laps in an hour.

lol.

big LOL!

(He was a little distracted as you will see in the photos)

My next lesson to teach Parkie...

to steer.

bff.

2009-07-20T09:44:00.000-07:00

Have you ever met someone that makes

your heart sing and fills my life with purpose.

Well I have and her name is

Alicia.

She is my best friend.

The Pea in my Pod.

Today is her Birthday!

When we are together our husbands hate us.

constant laughing...

celebrity gossiping...

music video dancing...

reality TV watching...

we do it all...

God even blessed us with the same allergies.

Alicia is one of the most "real" people I know.

Her heart is even more real.

I love my lady.

My "secret lover"

(not like that sickos)

So. go. wish. her. a. Happy. Happy. Birthday.

lovely people.

2009-07-16T23:07:00.000-07:00

We have some business to take care of!

So the Lovely Miss Ali over @ The Way I See It

Bestowed Two awards on me (one from a few weeks ago)

First we have:

Now The Rules!

-Thank the award giver

-Copy the logo and place on your blog

-Link back to the award giver/s

-Name 10 things about you that people may find interesting

-Nominate and link 10 other blogs for this award

-Comment on each blog to tell them about the award!

Ten interesting things about myself...

1. I have the poem "The Jabberwocky" memorized.

2. I am going to get a nose job.

3. I can remember almost all of my cheer routines. (10 years worth)

4. Being as artistic as I am, I still can't manage to paint my own finger nails! ( Thanks Alicia!)

5. Every time I am in the shower I have to have music so I can dance!

6. In some weird creepy way I like getting shots.

7. In middle school my nickname was "Arnold" because I could bench more than the boys.

8. I am obsessed with people watching and eaves dropping at restaurants.

9. Sometimes I get my dreams and reality mixed up. ( Like really convincing myself that someone could just maybe leave a baby on my doorstep)

10. I am a talker. People who have yet to meet me in person... I warned you! I could talk and talk for hours. ( But I must say my stories, "brooke storie's" are auuhhmaaazzzing!)

I now pass this lovely award to:

The second one:

"This award is bestowed on to blogs that are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."

I choose:

Everyone!

I think all of you are charming and I consider you my friends! So go ahead and take it!!

Now I have another lovely from a lovely!

Miss Aubrey from Made you Blush adorned me with this beauty!

Have I mentioned how much I love Aubrey yet? Well I do! We are like this (crossing my fingers)

Her blog is auhmazing!

I pass this onto:

Oofa Luffa Le

Ears.

2009-07-14T17:18:00.001-07:00

It's about time I introduce you to....

Parkie's "New Ears"

My. Oh. My. is he adapting well.

Today he turned to his name for the first time.

My heart melted and splattered on the floor.

Mr. Parkie now enjoys the sounds of...

screaming children.

(he thinks its fascinating hearing someone cry)

Running water.

Cars honking.

Doors slamming.

Clapping.

Microwave beeping.

His laughter.

My songs.

So much more.

Isn't it crazy to think just a mere two weeks ago

my little man had no concept of sound.

nothing.

nada.

zip.

zilch.

He is progressing rapidly and hears new noises daily.

I am so happy all of you get to follow his journey!!

This is going to be an amazing ride!

Now check out his new flashy accessories.

Ok.

So the thing connected to his head is a magnet.

It sends the sound to the actual

implant inside his head.

Parkie hears the door shutting.

He heard his bike crashing on the cement.

Tantrums are a whole new experience!

He thinks they are hilarious!

Parker. they. are. not. funny.

Exploring for bugs is different too.

CCHAT.

2009-07-13T12:14:00.000-07:00

CCHAT.

What is Cchat might you ask?

Children's Choice for Hearing and Talking.

Cchat Center is an Oral Deaf School here in Northern CA.

They teach deaf children to "learn" to listen and speak.

Mr. Parkie attends CChat 5 days a week.

It is an amazing program.

These children communicate...most better than I do!

Due to the fact CChat isn't a public school, it receives

minimal funding from the school districts, most is fundraised.

On Friday Parker will be participating in CChat's Bike-a-thon.

Each family has a goal of raising 200.00 for the school.

If you would like to make a pledge and donate please email me for more info.

(Brookebtty@gmail.com)

Every dollar counts.

No Pressure, Really!

Cchat Website: Click

2009-07-08T17:50:00.000-07:00

So many exciting things...

I have been creating lately.

Ahhh!

I feel like it has been so long since I have

been able to open up my mind.

Also on another happy note

Parkie started school.

He is learning to listen and develop sound and speech.

So amazing.

I will post another video soon.

(life after activation)

Here are a couple paintings I have been working on.

:)))))))))))))

"Odd Family Portrait"

(continued painting from Curieux)

"Love Bird"

fire dances.

2009-07-05T14:32:00.000-07:00

Oooooooo.

Awwwweeeee.

Our 4th celebration was fan-tacular!

We first headed to the pool for an afternoon swim.

Tanning lotion in hand, SPF 4.

Got my tan on!!

Poor Hubs tried to get some "color"

If red lobster is color he wanted...he got it!

After 3 hours of intense sun and splashing we headed back home

to give Mr. Parkie a nap and make some yummy food for dinner.

One pasta salad and Muddie Buddies later

we were off to Alicia's!

Woooo!

Let the Party begin!

Goodness the food.

much

food.

5,000 Calories later...

500 water balloons later....

Fireworks spectacular!

I can't even begin to describe the fireworks.

Lets just say more than a few weren't bought at the

firework stands on the corner...

oh. my. it. was. fun.

Luckily I only got burned once.

(Stupid sparkler)

I was so stoked about these pictures!!

All are unedited.

Um is it just me or does this picture spell out Jasmine??

This is my one handed cartwheel while holding a sparkler...

hmmm wonder how I got burned?

I'm an idiot

he hears.

2009-07-02T19:52:00.000-07:00

Here is the activation video of Mr. Parkie.

Enjoy.

I wish I could hand out tissues!

(at around 2 min is when he hears sound)

technical difficulties.

2009-07-01T13:18:00.000-07:00

I am trying to get a video uploaded... it's not working.

The Hubs is going to look at it tonight.

Yesterday went fantablulous!

Parkie HEARS!

He was pretty comfertable until the audiologist turned it up a little too high.

Then he kept taking the implants off.

(They are magnitized so the just pop off)

I knew it was going to be hard for him.

What a transition.

Our world is SO noisy!

He has worn them all day today.

we have been going around the house discovering funny noises.

He is a big fan of banging pots and pans, and hammering.

Not a big fan of my voice...

hopefully that changes.

Will update more soon.

lalalalala.

2009-06-30T10:43:00.000-07:00

Today is Parkie's Day.

at 1:00pm

he will hear for the first time.

(cross my fingers)

Chills.

I will update everyone as soon as we get home!

hot tea.

2009-06-27T10:00:00.001-07:00

It's here!

A Mad Tea Party fit for a queen!

Hosted by the lovely Vanessa

at Fanciful Twist.

I wish I could play all day but you see

some special visitors decided to surprise me!

I indeed celebrated, but in a different way...

In 105 degree heat we must have a Mad Tea Pool Party!

We swam in cool raspberry lemonade.

Chowed on ice cream sundaes.

Played 3 rounds of fish outta water.

Parkie won.

(Cheater)

The celebration will continue late in the night.

Wish all of you could join the festivities!

summa.

2009-06-25T17:20:00.000-07:00

Oh. Boy.

it's hot.

i wouldn't love this heat so much

if i didn't have a...

KIDDIE POOL!

whoop. whoop.

Parkie and I think it's quite ahmahzing!

today. we were water babies.

my toes and fingers are forever wrinkly.

Popsicle.

watermelon.

the Smell of sun screen.

crispy hair.

MmMmm...

i luff summa!

Apparently, Parkie is shooting me. lol.

what do you see in these whispy clouds?

who.was.i.kidding.

2009-06-24T13:54:00.000-07:00

I tried to stay away, I really did.

I became my own stalker!

Most def. learned I am my own worst critic.

Got over myself and moved on.

I think Parkie was missing our adventures too.

So I am back. For good.

Don't ever let me leave again!

I have so many fantabulous ideas!

Ahhhhhh!

Today I start my Etsy Creations.

Now I need a "store" name.

any suggestions?

Oh.

I need to thank some wonderful people

who gave me purtiful awards.

First off Thank You:

KLaw

and

My dear Alicia

For all you Ryan Reynolds fans, I warn you now.

KLaw will bring the hammer down!

She Hearts him very much.

Umm. If you want to piddle in your pants.

Alicia's Blog is def a great stop. :)

I now award:

Adele

and

My Mom

..............

A BIG Thank You to Miss Aubrey

What an ah-mah-zing award!

I'm a blog buddy!!

I Award:

Jasmine

and

Alicia

cricket. cricket.

2009-06-18T11:37:00.000-07:00

For once in my life I have no words.

no thoughts...

no creativity...

It scares me and I'm feeling a little lost.

Depressing.

I'm going to take a break from the blogging world.

Maybe for a week, Maybe longer.

I will leave you with some Puzzles from Wonderland.

Dreaming of apples on a wall,

And dreaming often, dear,

I dreamed that, If I counted all,

-How many would appear?

What is most like a bee in May?

"Well, let me think: perhaps-" you say.

Bravo! You're guessing well to-day!

I will give you the answers when I return.

Last but not least here are some pictures

of what I found Parkie doing this morning.

another adventure.

2009-06-16T14:03:00.000-07:00

It started and ended with a Watermelon.

Oh how that royally round fruits shape reminded me

of a dear friend Parkie and I met on one of our adventures....

Lunch is always served at the same time everyday.

When things get off schedule mad things happen.

On this particular day, mad things happened indeed.

I don't quite recall how we got to that magical place.

The first memory that comes to mind is a Queen.

She introduced herself to Parkie and I as Lady Hortensia Queen of Toad Flax.

Aw. We were in Toad Flax. Toad Flax?

Anyway, Lady Hortensia was an odd women... Err I mean "Queen".

Instead of walking and talking forward, she walked and talked backward.

Curiosity killed that Cat so I didn't dare question her speech,

who knows how she would have reacted.

Luckily, in Toad Flax when one speaks the words flow from your mouth like a book.

Instead of having to listen to her speak I could read her words.

I gently asked for a mirror so I could read the reflection.

Out came:

"nI daoT xalF ereht sevil a koobyrots ytirbelec uoy tsum teem, I wonk uoy evah draeh fo typmuH ytpmuD. mA I tcerroc?

In the mirror I read, "In Toad Flax there lives a storybook celebrity you must meet,

I know you have heard of Humpty Dumpty. Am I correct?"

Interested I was.

So she kindly gave us directions and politely apologized for not being able to travel with us.

I didn't mind I had a migraine from her words anyway.

So on we went, not really knowing where we were or where we were going.

A couple yards in front of us stood a frog (or what I thought was a frog)

I mistakenly took him for the Frog Prince, for he looked like a frog and he had a crown on.

He wouldn't give us further directions until I addressed him by his true name...

Germander King of the Toads.

He was a very snobby fellow, I was very glad to leave his presence.

Before we frolicked off to find our storybook celebrity, Parker double dared me to kiss the toad.

Oh how he forgets I kiss one everyday. :)

We finally fell our eyes upon Mr. Humpty Dumpty himself.

He began telling us his story about how he came to be so breakable.

Poor egg. I just kept playing his sad story over and over.

Falling.

Breaking.

Being put back together all over again.

and again.

Never to feel the same.

Then I thought a horrible thought....

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall...

and he never got back up.

What if no one could put him back together again??

What a dreaded thought.

I quickly erased it from my mind.

I do think he thinks of that day often, but I have a feeling his story will be around

FOREVER.

It was a very entertaining adventure, one Parkie and I will never forget.

I often think of my friends from Toad Flax.

Everytime I look in a mirror I see a glimpse of

Lady Hortensia's crown and confusing words in the reflection.

When I see warty Toads hopping past my driveway,

Germander's snobby self comes to mind.

Last but not least when I fry my morning eggs or eat a lopsided watermelon

I think of Mr. Humpty Dumpty and his fragile self.

I started and ended with a Watermelon.

home2. (Parkie's Room)

2009-06-16T09:56:00.001-07:00

What's a mini tour of the new place without a view of Parkie's Room??

Duh.

Here is what I have put together so far.

home.

2009-06-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

I am now a Cul-de-sac livin, backyard playin Mom.

Ahhhhh.

Am I supposed to wear a floral apron now?

Weird.

Good weird.

Meet my new home.

"Alice in Wonderland" inspired wall.

Family picture wall

Disclaimer: NOT FINISHED

done.

2009-06-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

The Chaos is slowing down.

My hands ache.

Legs are mush.

So worth it!!

Every box is unpacked.

Almost every piece of decor is in place.

Walls, painted.

Feels so good to be settled into our new home. :)

Parker has spent every waking moment in the backyard.

Yesterday he followed a couple ants around for an hour. lol.

Bliss.

(I will post pictures later.)

Celebrate!

2009-06-12T08:20:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Parker!

I can't believe 2 years ago today, I gave birth to a beautiful 6lbs 11oz baby boy.

Where has time gone?

Didn't he just learn how to walk?

I now officially have a toddler.

Oh Boy!

These past years with Parkie have been very eventful.

Our family has grown a very special bond.

He helped me come back to life.

We will be celebrating Parker's Birthday in 3 parts:

1. A small celebration today that include Balloons, Mr. Potato Head and a cupcake,

2. Next week, when things die down a bit we will have a housewarming/birthday with friends.

3. In July(hopefully) we will be going big, with a Hearing/Birthday Party with family and friends.

I am so thrilled that I am able to watch my little man grow up.

Hopefully not to soon.

(Insert Tears)

I love you my Parkie!

It all began with a belly.

(9 mos prego)

He will always be my "Old man gummy"

3 mos.

Halloween

(4 mos)

"The Face"

(11mos)

1st Birthday

Easter

(1yr 10mos)

Have an Enchanting weekend!

I know I will! Moving.

BLAH!

Sisters....

2009-06-10T20:28:00.000-07:00

I've been tagged by someone with the best name ever! (Brooke)

Over at offa luffa le

Hop on over to her blog , total cuteness!

1. open your first photo folder

2. now scroll to the tenth photo

3. post that photo and story on your blog

4. tag five friends to do the same

Meet Stacey the best 3rd sister ever!

So. I grew up in Clovis, Ca " The gateway to the Sierra's" lol.

The Hubs and I moved up here to Rocklin about a year ago.

That means we had to leave our family behind.

(Tear Tear)

Sooooooooo......................

In this particular picture, Stacey came up tom visit me! Woo!

Hm, and when we get together we get crazy silly.

So at about 2am I decided I wanted to dye my hair dark.

(Naturally Blonde)

Whats a sister gunna do?

We drove to Rite Aide and got a box dye.

Crazy. Period.

Stacey is my GoTo girl.

She is always there when I need her.

My "Mother-Hubbard"

Stacey knows every dark part of me.

She has held and cried with me many times.

She has been there to watch Parkie be born.

(Poor Girl)

She is my rock and I don't know what I would do without her.

Dang. Now my eyes are sweating. Boo.

I tag.

...and the award goes to Me!

2009-06-10T08:11:00.000-07:00

So my lovely friend (more like partner in crime)

It Aint Easy Being Cheesy so kindly gave me this award.

Go take a peek at her blog, complete with:

Pog Tornaments, Cupcakes your gunna wish you could eat off the screen,

Beautiful kids and laughter. :)

Here are the rules:

-tell everyone 10 things about you they may not know, but are true
-tag 5 bloggers with the award

and we begin.

1. I got married 3 weeks out of High School. :)

2. I turn all of my shampoo, lotion,perfume etc bottles facing forward so they don't get lonely.

3. I have a photographic memory, I see it once I will always remember it.

4. I am a big daredevil. (My medical bills prove it.)

5. I have to eat 3 altoids or more at a time. Hi, my name is Brooke and I am an Altoidaholic.

6. I did a standing tuck 3 days after having Parker. Idiot. Ha.

7. I wanted to be a Sniper but Bobby told me women couldn't do it cause they are too emotional!

8. I get into trouble speakingmy mind and not having boundaries. Working on it. :)

9. When I go to someones house I always picture how it should be decorated.

10. Always count my steps.

I pick:

Brooke @ Oofa Luffa Le

Aubrey @ Made You Blush

Carolyn @ TeamBoo

Jasmine @ An Experiment in Poverty

Britten @ FeyaVanya's Thoughts

Thinking?

2009-06-09T13:25:00.000-07:00

Simple Question...

What was I thinking??

Moving... Ugh.

Packing... Double Ugh!

Now I'm talking to myself.

Just send me to the room with the white padded walls now!

The more I pack the messier my house looks.

Parker thinks "Fragile" marked boxes are fun to jump on! Woo.

"Parker, looks like your recovering fast, so make yourself useful and hand me the tape!"

Why do I own 5 sets of napkin rings?

"Parker pick out three toys that's all were taking to the new house, we'll donate the rest."

I think there is something living under my bed.

Visious dust bunnies.

Ok, now I'm spinning.

Dizzy.

Brreeaattthhee.

Help?

2009-06-08T16:17:00.000-07:00

Here is a quick peek into a series of paintings I am doing.

Introducing:

Curieux

Parkie are you in there?

2009-06-08T08:30:00.000-07:00

I wasn't going to put these pictures of Parker up because they are hard for me to look at, but all of you have been such great support to my family and I that I felt I needed to share his recovering process.

Meet Parker... I think?

Due to swelling my baby has changed. A lot. (Granted in a few weeks he will be back to normal but it is still different.)

His poor head has doubled in size. (maybe that means his brain has grown which therefore means he is getting smarter?)

His precious little "decoration" of ears (we call them decorations because that's what they are to him... no purpose) are an inch lower than normal. (more swelling)

O that smile that makes me melt, won't turn up.

He had his head drilled into 3 days ago and he is still beautiful, maybe a little different but he is still mine.

2009-06-06T16:19:00.000-07:00

Here we are, the journey has officially started!

I wanted to give everyone an Update on Parker.

I will post more later, we are all so exhausted.

Parker's surgery went Fantabulous!

Luckily we got discharged early! Thank the Lord! Parker is handling this "change" very well. A little better than I am. He is very swollen, and doesn't quite look like my child yet. But I have to say the swelling brought back those luscious cheeks.

Our surgeon told us when we got home to take off his bandages... uhhh kinda creepy. I thought Bobby was going to pass out on me. Parker took it for the team though and ripped them off before we could. So thoughtful right? Lol.

He seriously was such a good sport, never cried once. He is way better than I am cause I would be milking the attention! Also, right before we left the hospital they had to make sure he could walk... guess what he did?? He pranced and danced all over the nurses station. Ha!

(June 30th is the day he gets the implants activated! I will post some videos of him once I edit them.)

Dear Parker.

2009-06-04T14:42:00.000-07:00

(I apologize to you now Parker for using this picture. I had no choice, look at that cute bum)

Dear Parker,

Breathe. In a few hours we will be taking a "new" adventure. This particular one will change our family forever. It will bring on different challenges and frustration, but we mustn't give up, no matter how hard or tiring we may feel. This is your journey. We will be with you as much as we can, but there will be times you will have to stand alone. Your NOT alone, ever. Ask questions, listen for answers. They will be there.

Parker, to begin this adventure some nice doctors will take you away from us. Don't be afraid. Close your eyes and think of all the fun things we have done together these past 2 years. Trips to far off lands, some real, some in our imagination. Remember the time we played Hide and Seek with Buzz? He wasn't too good at it. Or remember when we went to "This isn't really Disney, Mickey traveling Circus/Freak show Compromise" that was fun! The nice doctors will give you some yummy medicine to help you fall asleep. Dream. Go places, visit people. It will be over in a twinkling of an eye. When you wake, you may feel a little nauseous, maybe not but try not to throw up on the nurses. Dad and I will be with you soon.

Remember Parker, this is only the beginning of our adventure. But the beginning is the most important because it means we have started. Stay strong. Dad and I love you soooo much! Endure to the End.

Love,

Mom

Tag.

2009-06-04T11:02:00.000-07:00

I've been tagged...

by one of my favorite bloggers Made You Blush.

What 6 unimportant things make me happy?

The Rules:

Answer the question.

Mention/link who tagged you.

Tag 6 of your favorite bloggers.

Let them know they're tagged.

1. Suprise packages in the mail.

2. Lip Gloss.

3. Anything Lewis Carroll. :)

4. Making people laugh.

5. Half Serious "Photoshoots" with the sisters.

6. Reading my younger sisters journal! Ha!

Translation:

"My sister is annoying!

because she is stupid in the brain!

but I still like her sometimes.

Her bed stinks because she pees.

PS. I'm Kidding."

Ha Ha!

I now tag:

Jasmine

Alicia

Eliza

Team Boo

Teryn

Naomi

Changes.

2009-06-03T14:02:00.000-07:00

In two days Parker will be getting Cochlear Implants. (Cross my fingers)

So, for the next few days my posts will be "Parker-fied" with stories, pictures and thoughts all about him. This is a very big moment in his life and I want to make sure we capture all of it.

"Tear, Tear"

Soon I will be introduced to a new Parker. Hmmm, once he hears sound will he think the same? Look at me the same? Laugh different? Become timid? Will the surgery even work?? I am preparing myself for every possibility. The Hubs and I adore this kid so freaking much, I am nervous to see what changes, if anything changes. He doesn't even know who I really am, when they hook the processors on I will introduce myself to my son for the first time. For the first time my son will hear me say " I love you". Those words are so powerful to me now. Signing it just isn't the same.

When Parker was first diagnosed, the Hubs took it pretty hard. Silently. I made a promise to Hubs and Parker that we would never give up. We would try to teach him about the world, in a different way. Regardless he is ours and we would have it no other way Cochlear Implant or Not. I don't know why he chose me to be his mother. Come on I was a naive, selfish, barely 20 year old when I had him. I do know he has changed a lot of peoples way of thinking. He is such a beam of light, in this dark world.

I hope he never stops dancing to his own beat.

I hope he continues to see detail.

I hope he likes our loud world.

I hope he never forgets we tried make the best decision for him.

I hope he likes me.

The hubs trying to entertain a hungry Parker.

Not too impressed by the entertainment.

My heart just melted and is on the floor!

Good boy cleaning your friend.

Someone dropped Woody, he's dirty again. Meltdown #1

My child looks homeless.

(Pt 3)

2009-06-02T14:46:00.000-07:00

Monterey Bay Aquarium.

Oh the exploration and knowledge you gain from this underwater wonder world!

Parkie was on overload from the visual stimulation.

The exhibits are phenomenal. Breathtaking really.

Every time we came up to a tank he did a little "Fishy Dance".

Squirm Squirm Squirm.

Wag the fin.

Fishy fishy kissy face.

This sweet lady offered to take our picture. Like everyone else, she didn't know Parkie is deaf so she kept making cute little noises to get his attention... The downside to deafness. Lol.

Again with the back of his head. Thoroughly annoyed. :)

"Bird"

All Mimsy were the Borogoves (Pt 2)

2009-06-01T13:28:00.000-07:00

"The time has come," the Walrus said,

"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings."

Point Lobos is one of my favorite spots to visit in Carmel. Isn't it gorgeous!

Awe, the stairs of Death!

Playing with sand crabbies! Fun...

The tree was calling my name.

Something happend to me during that visit... a little loopy or perhaps I've gone MAD!

Until we meet again Carmel...until we meet again!

All mimsy were the borogoves (pt.1)

2009-05-31T14:08:00.000-07:00

All I can do is smile.

Our little "adventure" was full of fantasticalness! It was full of excitement, meltdowns (from all parties) laughter and the purest happiness I have experienced in quite some time.

(I won't be able to fit everything in one post, so I will be splitting it up in parts.)

Introducing,

If you had the poem Jabberwocky memorized you got a prize at breakfast.

I was in heaven, a giddy little girl.

Bocce Ball

2009-05-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

A much needed break is in need for the Hubs, Parkie and I.

We are headed off to one of my favorite places... Monterey, Ca.

So magical.

We will be staying at an "Alice in Wonderland" themed Inn. Seriously!! Ahhhh! I could about die just thinking how scrumptous its going to be!

Lots more to come when I return from this adventure. Until then, one of my favorite poems (which I almost have memorized)

`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought --
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And, has thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!'
He chortled in his joy.

`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

-Lewis Carroll

2009-05-26T14:34:00.000-07:00

Good Friends.

Good Food.

Good fun.

CAMPING!

I'll sum it up with some randomness.

Smores.

Bugs.

No toilet paper.

Sister Act.

Courtney Mortimer.

No one likes Alice in Wonderland.

Snakes.

Preparations for delivering a baby.

Foil Dinners.

Creepy old guy Shhhing.

"Sorry".

Pretty much had a fantasmic time!

Parkie loved the sleeping bag.

Poor caterpillar got squished to death 2 seconds later. RIP.

PS. Check out my little brother singing my favorite song. Here.

2009-05-22T10:52:00.000-07:00

Parker, Life is a little tricky and can be down right messy. So as the fabulous Mom that I am, I decided to give you some Survival Tips for this woe-be-gone world of ours.

Tip #1

Tattoos. If you come home with a tattoo and try to put the blame on me because I used to write sharpie on you as a kid and you got confused.... your dead. You will be scraping gum off the sidewalks for a good year. Better yet, I will lay you down and scrape the tattoo right off your body! Don't get me wrong I think the "Art" of tattoos are beautiful, how bout we get one on canvas instead! Oh, and if you play the "Mom, your so not cool, you don't understand...blah blah blah." Gum scraping for 2 years!

Tip #2

Choking. Hugging someone and choking the life out of someone ISN'T the same thing. Only under self defense do I allow it. Just please make sure to stop before they turn blue.

Tip #3

Ears. I know your ears may seem like jewelry to you, kinda pointless. Well, us "normal" people use ours and we would appreciate some respect. That means no shoving your fingers into strangers ears because you think its funny. Now, you can do that to Dad all you want (just don't tell him I said that.)

Tip #4

Feeding. Lets learn to sit up and use a spoon like a big boy! I don't want to send you off to college thinking your roommate will feed you and be happy about it. He won't. It just doesn't look good.

Tip #5

The Cuteness Factor. When you know you are doing something sneaky and wrong, at least look cute and apologetic when you get caught. This will take you very far in life. Especially when you get married.

Tip #6

The Look. This look means back off. This look means if you don't start walking away immediately steam will start shooting from my ears and that pitch fork will end up "somewhere". I like you alot... so lets keep you alive.

Tip #7

Time Out. When you do something you know you shouldn't be doing, there will be consequences. Some more severe than others. Time out is an easy one. Trust me! So stop complaining and those two minutes will end soon. Um, and remember, Mommy isn't doing this because I don't like you, I am doing it because I like you. I just don't want you to turn out like someone we both know and love.

Tip # 8

Parents. There will come a time when you won't think we are cool anymore. I know crazy right! We understand though. We did the same things to our parents. It's just whats supposed to happen. Just know, that when that time does come we will still be your biggest fans. I will still hug and kiss you even if you pull away. Remember to come to US when you want to talk or some advice. We will try to understand you the BEST we can. Keep us in your world.

Muah!

On a Trip...In our Imagination.

2009-05-20T15:52:00.000-07:00

This Morning Parker and I desperately needed to take a trip.

Hmmm... Where to go?

I wanted to go to the Circus. He wanted to see Mickey.

No such thing as a "Mickey Circus" in real life, so we made one!

Welcome to"This isn't really Disney, Mickey traveling Circus/Freak show Compromise"

We quickly found our seats once we arrived, I didn't even notice the snarky Gnome sitting next to me. We really weren't in Rocklin anymore!

The Ring Leader (Captain Obi the Alien) his pet Poodle Doris came out to introduce the first act. Genetically mutated animals? Hmmm... A Polar Bear the size of a yellow school bus, a T- Rex that was just short of four feet, and a pig the size of a van my Mom once had. It was very entertaining. Parker was a little freaked out so he just sat quietly munching on some dandelions. Candied of course!

The Second Act was a dance number. A Goose and her newborn duckling performed to one of my favorite songs, "Footloose". (Remember this is my imagination, so I get to pick the song.)

Then for the final act an Elephant with green polka dots pranced across a tightrope. Lovely.

The Gnome sitting next to me told Parker and I we couldn't leave until we saw The Bearded Lady. I have never seen one before so I thought it would be an educational experience for both Parker and I. (Wax, Shave or Pluck regularly!) She looked very sad in her cage. Everyone was laughing and pointing at this poor women. Parker even tried to tug on her beard! I quickley told him that wasn't polite. So I did the only thing I thought I could do, I handed her a box of Nair and the number for a "Hairy Women Support Group." She smiled then waved Parker and I goodbye.

Luckily we got out of the Circus tent fast because I heard (from a no name source) that the F.ederal B.ureau of I.magination came and shut the whole thing down due to illegal activities. (I think it was the Genetically mutated animals!) I'm just sayin!

We had a very enjoyable day and now are tummies are full from candied dandelions! We do hope to go on some more "trips". I wonder where our next stop will be???
©

When will Innocence be lost?

2009-05-18T13:07:00.000-07:00

Water Dances.

2009-05-16T18:04:00.000-07:00

Explain this to me.

I thought being deaf meant you couldn't hear...

If you couldn't hear you wouldn't know music.

Without music how can you dance?

My Parker is such a Dancer. He doesn't walk, he prances.

Tip toe here, tap tap tap.

Spin, Spin.

Wiggle, wiggle, wiggle.

I love his "Happy Feet" dances.

WwwHhhOoo AaaRrrEe YyyOooUuuu?

2009-05-15T15:24:00.000-07:00

Caterpiller: Who... are... you?

Alice: Why, I hardly know, sir. I've changed so much since this morning, you see...

Caterpiller: No, I do not C, explain yourself.

Alice: I'm afraid I can't explain myself, you see, because I'm not myself, you know.
Caterpiller: I do not know.
Alice: I can't put it any more clearly, sir, because it isn't clear to me.

Who...Are...You?

Who am I? Who am I?

I always make sure to ask myself this question. It helps me connect to what and who I really am.

I am a wife to my best friend.

I am a mother to a sweet and silly little boy.

I am a daughter to very courageous parents.

I am an older sister to very talented siblings.

I am a believer.

I am a dreamer.

I am a story teller.

I am a altoid lover.

I am a thrift store junkie.

I am a suspender, Spiderman shirt wearer.

I am who I am and I love me!

WHO ARE YOU??

Adventures at the Zoo.

2009-05-13T13:57:00.000-07:00

Look Mom REAL animals!

Ok, Mom Lets go home!

How to Eat with No Hands. By Parker

2009-05-13T13:10:00.000-07:00

Mad Tea Party Anyone?

2009-05-11T19:30:00.000-07:00

Today Alice was invited to the Mad Hatters garden for a Tea Party. She was delighted to hear that powdered donuts and tea were being served. Little did she know the Mad Hatter was really MAD! Quite crazy actually, all she spoke was nonsense. Poor Alice.

Alice: I was sitting on the riverbank with uh... with you know who...
Mad Hatter: I DO?
Alice: I mean my C-A-T.
Mad Hatter: Tea?
Mad Hatter: Do you care for tea?
Alice: Why, yes. I'm very fond of tea.
Mad Hatter: If you don't care for tea, you could at least make polite conversation!

Adventures and Chaos.

2009-05-11T10:13:00.000-07:00

Thank you everyone who worte kind Birthday wishes on my blog. Every comment made me smile. I had an awesome birthday, and yes only being 22 for about a day and a half I already feel older and wiser!

Well, the Hubby went on a business trip to the east coast for a week and there is no way in heck I was going to stay home alone! (Ok I may feel older, but I am still afraid of the dark) So Parker and I took a little journey to Fresno to stay with my parents. Let me just tell you, best idea ever! The reasons being...

A: I rarely have to watch Parker, there is always someone wanting to play with him or change his diaper for me, feed him. It's great!

B: Everytime I come my Mom has about two boxes of "treasures" from thrift stores and antique stores she has collected for me.

C: I don't have to clean, cook, pluck my eyebrows, shave my legs... I feel so comfertable!

D: I get to play dress up and do goofy things with my siblings. Pretty Awesome! Uhhh.. and expect a glamour "not so serious" photo shoot soon. Inspiration= Alice in Wonderland!

This is going to be an interesting week. The Joy of Chaos and Laughter!

Happy Birthday!

2009-05-09T10:20:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggers! this is Brooke's husband...I have no clue what i am doing so hopefully this works.

I decided it would be fun to hack into Brooke's Blog to tell her how great she is and how much Parker and I love her! Seems her birthday falls on the perfect weekend, with her birthday today and Mothers Day tomorrow. Brooke is a great wife and amazing mother. Brooke, Have a Happy Birthday...

Love

Hubby.

Peter Pan.

2009-05-07T13:02:00.000-07:00

One of the most well known and best loved fantasy story is Peter Pan. It helps me remember my childhood imagination and how much I still live in that world!

Pirates.

Indians.

Fairies.

Kingdoms.

Worlds to be created.

Creatures to be discovered.

Strengthening that part of me lets me escape from dark and hard times.

Each day I feel it is my responsibility to bring that world to Parker. To teach him to open up his imagination.

Yesterday he was Peter and I was Captian Hook.

Some say the symbolism of Peter losing his shadow is the process of a child growing up.

I hope Parker never loses his shadow.

Cinco De Mayo!

2009-05-05T22:36:00.000-07:00

Wow! We had one heck of a Cinco De Mayo! When you get a ton of LDS couples and their kids together, things are bound to get crazzzy! We had a bounce house, pinata, VIRGIN margaritas, churros and some amazing carne asada. Alicia and I took advantage of the holiday just so we could dress up. I seriously couldn't keep my mustache on I was laughing so hard. So fun.

Parker didn't like his mom with a "stache" Poor Kid.

Hilarious!

The hubby being supportive.

I just want to eat his cheeks off they are so cute!

The hat was his new best friend for the night.

Creations.

2009-05-04T17:45:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been very very inspired by this website, here. All of her art and creations are seriously breath taking! So I decided to have some fun and play around with different mediums and see what I could do. (Ps. These pictures are horrible, they look totally different in person.)